Diary of a Plus-Sized woman...

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2005-09-20T23:37:00.000-02:30

Dear Blogspot members and Friends...and whom everyelse may be reading this entry of mine...Its kind of funny how I find myself coming back to one site I use to write ...one time after another ..Either I am bored ..Just feeling over stressed...or just the need to write something.Well I guess I just thought I would share something since I forgot I even had this blog...So what s new with me you might ask or not ask...Well I have a new job...New hair color and I am on a diet my second day in...well thats all for today..
Happy Blogging...
Melissa

Dear Mom

2005-01-12T13:13:00.000-03:30

Dear Mom ,
I am so sorry I never realized this until I got older ..That everything you normally said to me when I was younger had more truth to it then I realized. If only Jennifer could understand too ...I love you and just want us to be happy ..Even though I am faraway I think of you often ..I also thank you for everything you have done for me ...
Love always your daughter ...
Melissa

Why this!

2005-01-10T15:03:00.000-03:30

Why this of all things in my life , why this .What your probably asking me..This is what ???after 2 years of being with Dave ..I am second guessing myself not him me..My heart , My feeling s dont get me wrong I love him..He loves me ...I just am sidetracked even though I am on the write track does that make sense??
Melissa
please leave a comment ...Postive and Negative...
and tell me your thoughts....

Engaged in A moment

2004-12-30T20:16:00.000-03:30

Hey all well its almost the new year and I miss all sorts of thing s that the new year brought me ...New Friends that I dont get to see so often that I wish I could see more ...I am now engaged to Dave the man whom I love and have been with for almost Two years just wanted to say hi Talk more soon ,
Melissa

Happy Birthday...26 Yikes

2004-12-07T20:51:00.000-03:30

Hey bloggers whats up ...Well today is My 26 th Birthday...Yeah ..Doesnt feel like I am 26 because usually there is few feet of snow on the ground when my birthday rolls around...So it wasn't the greatest last year when we had a major snow storm when it was my bithday but surprisingly enough there is no snow at this point in time..Right now I am going threw what I have done ..in the past 26 years and what I would like to do next ...I would like to do so many things ..Well I would say ...what I want to do but thats a secret !!!~Melissa ...
Dolphincries@hotmail.com

13 Days to go...~My thoughts ..for now

2004-11-24T09:57:00.000-03:30

...13 days till I turn 26 !

This year went by quick!.It has been defintley a intertesting year though.Lost some friends meet some new ones *Monica* Got laid off ..Found myself in the Unemployment line ..There are so many things I would like to do before my 27th Birthday ...I would love to go home ..to visit my family and friends ...Miss the so much...I have been a stranger for the past couple of years to them though...Mainly because ..Of stupid personal reasons ...I let the past get the best of me ...2005 will be different though...Maybe my 27th year will be my year of luck !!! Gee I hope so...(lol)Man things ...have been so slacking ...lately ...I love it though!!!But whom wouldn't ....

Lates ...

Melissa

I need a Drink ...This is kinda a SOS!

2004-11-19T10:17:00.000-03:30

Hi there ,
Well I think I need a good cold alcholic drink ( double shots ) so Stressed...
Christmas is 1 Month and 6 days away so many people on my list to get .
So many things to do ..Wish I was going home for Xmas but I am not which
sucks ..I have to stand tall right now ..For so many reasons ..I feel like I am
a DOORMAT !!!
I need Help (SOS)

Lates,

*Melissa*

~Shopping....

2004-11-17T09:20:00.000-03:30

Simple things are always the hardest things to do...Christmas Shopping !
I was in the mall trying to pick out Christmas presents/A Birthday gift and
of course I find that one of the hardest things to do ..There are so many toys ,
movies , etc and the worst thing for me is buying something and that person
is ungrateful 4 Stupid me I care some people don't , But I am one of those people whom
do why? Whom know' s !Well anything I wanted to get My friend's son ( Brady ) for his 2 nd birthday just happened to be sold out !!! I hate that but it happens to me alot! I ended up
buying him A truck with toy blocks in it and some tonka trucks ...You just can't go wrong there .......
Well I am sure Brady will have fun with that ...Christmas Shopping Grr ..That Is a another story well I should get going!
* Melissa *

Broken

2004-11-15T09:17:00.000-03:30

Hey all its been awhile ..To all the reader s of Blogger ..sorry...I had writers block...I am back now though.....

Feeling ......
Broken ...
Lost ..
Worthless..
But @ the same time loved .how the f*ck is that ???
Don't make sense to me ...Nor will it..
can't wait till the Fantasia party tommorow night going to get some *Goodies*
Surprised...
Found out that the guy that drove me nuts @ Rmh got a Supervisior postion at Nucomm!
WtF? I am asking ? I just hope my friend *Laura* got the supervisior postion too though because
she is defintley more deserving ...
She ain't the shady type ..
Email's Welcome Dolphincries@hotmail.com
Lates
*Melissa*

small Blog

2004-11-04T09:32:00.000-03:30

Hey there everyone ...It is been since Monday since I have written a blog...Been to busy but nothing really to share ..Just dropping a line to say "Hey"
Take care Melissa

NOYFB

2004-11-01T11:26:00.000-03:30

Maybe you should take your own advice .. NOYFB get a life ..get a job ...and well your add it seek some "HELP"...Thank god ...That I dont know you!!!

This is My Blog

2004-11-01T10:21:00.000-03:30

This is my blog ..Dont like ..Dont read it!!!
If you Like it ..then by all means read it..
Ha ha ..Think I care what you think about the way
I look. I dont care ..This is me ..Aint nobody going to
change the way I feel .If you think my life must be pretty
boring ..Maybe it is ...Its pretty pathetic ..When someone
posts pathetic hate comments it makes me laugh...
Bad thing is I have to read them ..Good Comment s are always welcome ..

Good Morning

2004-11-01T08:33:00.000-03:30

Hey all ...Well it s November now Yikes ..I feel October went buy a little to fast ..But that means my Birthday is in 36 days the whole "26" This year ! Christmas Shopping ...Yikes there is only 54 days till Christmas and I have still like 10 people to buy for yikes ...well I should get a move on it then eh ? I was hoping to go home for Christmas but then the more I
thought about there is now way I could afford too...So I called my mother last night and told her that I would make it next year instead. She was ok with it.Last night for Halloween I went out for Dinner @ Keystone Kelly's then after that we went to the Movie theatre before we watched our movie Dave and I played Arcade games yeppie .!Our Movie of Choice was
"The Grudge" It wasnt scary for me ..I knew when the bad parts where coming ..but other that that it wasnt that bad ..David on the other hand was a little jumpy which surprise's me.That was it, For Halloween 2004 ..

Love Poem of the Day:

Secret Crush by Mary

Your eyes entrap me
Every time you're around
I want to let you know
But I can't make a sound

At first I never thought
I could feel this way
But my heart proves me wrong
Every day

I'm trying to get
The courage to let you know
What my feelings are
So afraid to show
You're the one for me
And soon
I'll let you see.

Love Quote of the Day :"Words and hearts should be handled with care, for words misspoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair."-Source Unknown

Halloween:)

2004-10-31T15:09:00.000-03:30

Hey there what s up all? Nothing much happening here it s October 31 .2004 ...Yeppie ...Halloween ..But no kids in my area will trick or treating
here due to new rules making them hold it on Saturday instead of Sunday ..I find it bogus what are they going to after this year about Halloween ..People with Authority make me sick I tell ya ...Moving Holiday s..Yikes ..What will they do NEXT ..?
what do you think ? Well I should get back to what I was doing ...
Write more soon.

A Halloween Treat by Hope

The fun we can have
On Halloween night
Tasty sweet treats
To nibble and bite

Shared candy kisses
Creating the spark
Pumpkin carvings
Glowing the dark

Witch from the west
Wickedly winks
Inviting you over
To share in drinks

Stirring a cauldron
The nectar sweet
Love is brewing
A Halloween treat

December

2004-10-29T10:54:00.000-02:30

DECEMBER:Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical

I was reading this thing off of my friend Laura 's bloghttp://justlaura.blogspot.com/ It is very interesting..Might I say my month sounds just like me !!!

Melissa

Poem of the Day !!!

2004-10-28T11:19:00.000-02:30

Empty Picture Frame
by Cungem
Nothing left but an empty picture frame.Hopes and dreams that went up in flames.The picture of you and me ceases to exist,Like a dream disappearing into the mist.The picture perfect you is an illusion,Leaving me in disbelief and seclusion.Foolishness prevented me to see The power you had over me.Tempting me with love and affection,Ending with feelings of rejection.Taking away the picture in my mind,Of a true love I can find. Taking back the love, you proclaimedLeaving me broken and never the same.Nothing left to reclaim,But an empty picture frame.
Check this site out www.lovingyou.com

Just being me!Nothing else

2004-10-28T09:23:00.000-02:30

Hey there ..You know its bad when you dont even know what day it is! I am so use to doing this and that that mind is throwing me blanks when it comes to thinking half the time ! Well its another day and more housework to do does it ever end.?Well I guess it just dont! wish it did but My pipe dream ..is to be rich and have a maid
Well nothing is new yet ...
Talk later ...

Melissa

Slow Down!!!

2004-10-25T09:02:00.000-02:30

Hey all ...well here is my story of my busy weekend ..It was so busy that my eyes where exhausted ..Before the usual time ..Well lets begin with "FRIDAY"-->didnt do much to start today but then by 8 pm it all began..went to the mall to look for a few things ..Returned the movie Breakin' all the Rules ...mmmm ( Morris Chessnutt aaaaaawwwwwwww) Hottie ...then we went out for something quick to eat and then Dave and I went to see "Ladder 49" Morris again awwwwwwww....I balled my eyes out like a little baby watching this one ...( Saturday ..aww Saturday ) Slept in .. then went Shopping for a bit then helped Dave in the woods !! Yes the wood s ..Picking furtips for Christmas wreaths .Then Sunday ...Did my aunt a favor at the Flea Market ...and helped Dave in the woods again...Then we went tim's for some hot drinks ...awww ..Then came home and watched a movie and hit the hay...Lates , Melissa

Sorry it took so long...

2004-10-22T09:47:00.000-02:30

Hey all..Its been awhile since I wrote here ..Been busy and not busy if you know what I mean ...I found out this week I will probably go home for Christmas :) yeah ! I might be going home for the holidays ..It feels great to have people you love actually want you to come home bad enough that they would pay for your ticket whoo hoo ..I just hope they actually follow through with it .Because I havent been home since 2002 ! so I would like to be home for Christmas ! I would also like to see all my old friends ...Its great to see familiar faces every once in awhile eh ? Well I should be going ..Melissa

Gets no better ....

2004-10-18T08:17:00.000-02:30

Hey all , what 's up , not all too much here just really busy this weekend! First on Saturday I slept in since threw Monday till Friday I am up at 7 am ..yeppie then we went to pick up Daves bro ( Dana) to go to Dave 's Dad's house to help him work on the house he bought recently ..Yeah !!! That was fun well I was helping I fell on my knees lovely ..They are all scratched up know ...:( Then Yesterday (sunday....Oct.17 th 04 ) was CLEANING DAY ...Another Yeppie ...Well Monday is going to be Laundry Day yeah ....Well I should go ..Just wanted to say Boooooo..
Melissa

NO FUN!!!

2004-10-17T11:49:00.000-02:30

I think ..too god dam much missing my family and my friend s for Barrie lately ..Thinking of all the times I used to party and then how much things changed when I moved here dam quick I know I am 25 !! But come on you still should be able to party some ...Everything has alot Drama too it here ..You go to a club and 90% of the time someone is going to get in a fight ..which is crazy ..I should be partying at the Roxx's or Queens...Room 112 or Foundation ..I shouldnt be sitting at home doing nothing all the time PRETTY MUCH ..No offense ..But I hate being Stuck...Its just not me...Melissa

Frustrated...

2004-10-15T12:37:00.000-02:30

Hey there well it is Friday again yeppie ..What happened this week a whole lot of nothing .
I wanted to get alot done this week but this week.I was pulled in several directions , not
all that I wanted to be pulled in ..But that s life then this weekend I will be going to Dave's
Dad's for the weekend I really do get along with his Dad and Linda .But I wish I could get
along with his mother that way but it s hard she is kind of like my mother and she isn't so
easy to get along with either .But I guess that s the way things can be sometimes ..Well I
hope next week is better ...Well Have a great weekend Everyone .Melissa:)

I can be so Blond sometimes..

2004-10-14T11:37:00.000-02:30

You guys are probably wondering whydolphincries@hotmail.com has added you and the reason is Funkymelody_78@hotmail.com has been deleted do to loss of password dam that sucks !! All of my friends I know from faraway email me there and I forgot my password Yikes ...Melissa ..Sorry for my blond mind today ..lol

unheard

2004-10-14T09:34:00.000-02:30

Hey all well it s Thrusday one more weekday to go yeppie ...Cant wait till tommorow to find out if Unemployment will fund my schooling and also allow myself to take computer courses !.Finally saw the Friends finale last night since I was working the night the finale aired ..I was Happy to see Ross and Rachel end up together !! That was nice as well as Chandler and Monica having Twins but as for Phoebe and Joey I was disappointed ...No room for them to end off in a high note Joey was all alone ...Like if he came up to me and said How you doing !! I would faint ..Well I have u ever felt unheard or just heard wrongly ..My boyfriend think s I am yelling when I am not ..My friend today thought I was making her soundstupid ..Maybe I should be invisible because I am either unheard or when I am heard I am heard wrongly ...GRRRR! Well, I should go have fun cleaning the house ......Melissa :)

Blog Time

2004-10-13T19:11:00.000-02:30

Hey all what s up well it is Wednesday at 7:11 pm and I am bored , Bought some new movies some I have seen before and Some I havent they will keep me busy though when I have no money and Nothing to do ..Well I got a email about a at home job ..Offers$100 -300 per sale sure it sounds nice ..But also to good to be true ..I want something for sure .It's hard to believe myself say this but I wish Nucomm did except me for the job ..I would have been back in the work force again ..But I am looking to go to the Community Access Centre here I heard it offers Computer Courses and I would like to get more knowledge anyways on this thingy ..My friend Laura is always telling How to do this and That and Sometimes I feel like a Tool for asking because I ask the same thing sometimes ..So I know these courses should defintley teach me something ..Well I also have to go back to school for alot of reasons ..Well I will know if Unemployment will be helping my funding soon enough...Well I should go thanks for reading ...Melissa

Well ....

2004-10-13T00:50:00.000-02:30

Hey everyone well this weekend was full of all the thing s you can do yeah ...Did all sorts of things this weekend ..Christmas Shopping , Visiting family and friends ..Found some encouraging wisdom and realized finally I am not alone ...Sometimes it takes the most little things to realize ..What you knew, But couldnt actually come to terms with it ..Funny how shit like that actually sets you in the right direction ...Who would have thunk it ..that way ..lol
Melissa

Happy Thanksgiving...

2004-10-10T21:35:00.000-02:30

Hi everyone ! Happy Thanksgiving..It has been at least 2 days since I wrote you last ..Busy weekend ..Saturday was a personal Day for me ..Being there for my boyfriend and then it was Thanksgiving Dinner and then I went out with Monica ...Today was just a busy day ..Melissa

TGIF...

2004-10-08T09:27:00.000-02:30

Hey well its Friday thank god this week was starting to get on my nerves ..Thank god I got alot done and Did alot too ...well there is still more to get done ..Christmas to think its almost here once again it just feels like it wasnt that long ago since last year s Christmas ..Well this year I started in August ..Since I have alot of people
in my family ..Well my Dad called me the other day and really wants me to come home he is willing to pay half for my flight ..He also is trying to get my Mom or My Grandpa to pay for the other half.. Part of me wants me to go home ..But I dont want to run into ol'familar faces that just bring painfull memories baack to me ....Grr..Dave came home last night with a pickle up his a** it was funny then he points the finger at me said I was yelling at him I told him "no sweetie" it was you starting with me ...he apologized after saying he had a bad day at his job ...Saying he was picking the pieces after his other coworkers ..Why do men just yell instead of saying whats wrong and They say were moody a man goes threw PMS every 15 minutes anyways ..lol Got my Hair Done Last night ...Got a New Sweater (Mens) Comfy one too ..Then Went to see "The" Forgotten"it was great mad my ass scream too ..lol I get spooked to easily lol...Melissa ....

Listenin' to : Sunshine - Lil' Flip

Just Thinking

2004-10-07T13:52:00.000-02:30

Not much room to succeed I live in a rural area . The only way to basically get all the fantastic jobs ...Is have a car ...But with gas prices so high I find it to be not worth it ..92.9 cents a litre and always goes up and down which seems to drive me nuts ..I applyed at this comany Nucomm that turned out to be a bust , and I come to find out that they have other ways of hiring people that they are using there "AUTHORITY" the way they see fit ...Well I think that is not away to run there company ...at all but that is what some people are like and I think its disgusting and it makes me sick ..Well I will know alot more once the company has been here longer...Well I have some friend s whom have a job there and I am happy for them there ...I just think the should have giving more qualified people a chance as well ..But as for me I have other thing s on my mind of what to do ..I was just hoping to get back to work soon then later ...Melissa

Blockbuster or Rogers ?Blockbuster :)

2004-10-06T11:21:00.000-02:30

Hey all whats up ? Nothing much is Happening here went to Blockbuster last night after I cashed my check to see what there prices were and I saw that they had resonable prices compared to rogers video ...Rogers wants you to pay $5.74 per night ...for a new realease ...and Blockbuster is $5.99 for 3 nights, So for exactly one flipping quater I get it for more and I bet I will avoid late fees this way plus My boyfriend Dave has been collecting video cash cupons from Post cereal boxes and Rogers only allows 1 cupon per purchase and I came to find out that Blockbuster allows us as much I as I want per purchase as long as we understand that we cant get change back so last night I bought around 300 dollars worth of movies or more for like $ 30 dollars suckers at rogers I think that company doesnt understand the fact that post pays them back retards ..Well not the people that work there ..The managers maybe ...My friend Tessa works there !!!So she is cool...I did some more Christmas shopping last night as well and did other stuff ...Melissa

Nothing Special

2004-10-05T13:19:00.000-02:30

Hey there...How are you ? I am fine. So how is everything ? With me ...MMM Ok ...Went to the movies last night and saw My first Daughter ..A corny chick flick ...But what can I say I am a Sap sometimes..Then I went to my friend Jenns House to see how she was doing then came home and was out like a lite ..Man part of me want s to be back in Barrie clubbing with the girls at the "Roxxs " or The Foundation or Room 112 ..Man Laura if you are reading you would have a Blast at Room 112 the play happening music ..Purely and Only Hip Hop and Reggaee !!!well I will be back home soon to visit ...Melissa

2004-10-04T17:44:00.000-02:30

Hey all well where do I begin I thought I was finished for the day then I recieved this letter in the mail that got me a little ticked off !!! I live in this small area in Canada where there are few jobs ..So when I company that is hiring 600 people and promises you feel your chances are high ...Then I get a letter telling they cant offer me a postion and they didnt tell me why you would think they would at least tell me why they will not consider me as one as there employees I think I deserve that much after I did a to hour test and all...Well they dont want me ..there crazy ...Well I got my Gst cheque thank goodness I was so broke ...And know I am not thank god ..Well I think I am going to go shopping for stuff I should get ei soon too :) Thank you for listening to me Melissa funkymelody_78@hotmail.com

2004-10-04T13:08:00.000-02:30

Dream s ..Grr ..Dream s you have so many of them and so many people are in your life to crush them.Man I love Dave ...And I have so many dreams to have a prefect family with him and all ...
But me and his mother or brother dont see eye to eye ..Well we have big steps this weekend to face I am so scared I feel so week and I dont know how to react this weekend or what to say I wish neither Dave or I never waited to face this at all ..Well time will only tell ...Ps what kind of friend are you??take this quiz ..http://www.tbssuperstation.com/stories/story/0%2C%2C32326%2C00.html Melissa

Mel's page

2004-10-04T12:44:00.000-02:30

What a Weekend !!!!

2004-10-04T08:26:00.000-02:30

My weekend ...where should I begin its not like it was wonderfull well it had its great parts and then again ..It has had its bad parts ...Well first part I had no funds at all to do anything which was horrible .But my luck is going to change this week when my first reasonable "ei" check comes in and when my GST comes in as well ...But the bad part is Christmas is coming soon and it s time to buy those presents .Whoooo Hooooo...Well my birthday is coming soon too the big "26" yeah ...I am hoping next year will bring me better things and all .Maybe I will go see my family next year ....
Melissa

My thoughts

2004-10-02T18:43:00.000-02:30

Man Oh Man this could get better but it hasnt yet ...It just seems to get worse...
I wish RMH never closed because I would still have a job to go to every night ..I
cant believe that I am whining as well ...I am complaining and I dont know why ?
I wanna go back to school to finish my highschool because I was nuts and dropped
out for work ...because I no longer lived with my mother...So now I am 25 with no
highschool diploma and I am going to be entering a classroom in March 14 th for the
first time in a long time ...A little scary I think then if I have good enough marks I am
going to try after I get my Ged to go for Office Admin...I am a little excited ...and all ...
well there are my thoughts on that and all ...well take care and email me your thoughts if
you wish Melissa ( funkymelody_78@hotmail.com)

I think there is a problem ?? Dont you...

2004-10-02T01:16:00.000-02:30

Hey !!! again its been about 2 minutes since I wrote my last blog but I have to write this one too...Dave has been coming home for the past 5 days angry ...He has never treated me this bad before ...??? Am I doing something to deserve it??? Melissa

Nucomm?

2004-10-01T21:02:00.000-02:30

Hey all ....its Friday October 1st 2004 ....Yeppie ,Nucomm still hasnt called me back and I am a little frustrated!!!! With the no call back situation ...They asked me too do a 2 hour test and they cant even call me back and I keep asking myself why ??? - Melissa

Have you ever ...

2004-09-30T03:58:00.000-02:30

Have you ever been been with someone whom has made you very frustrated as well ...Can make you very happy me and Dave have been together for 1 year and 6 months now ...Dave ..is caring ..romantic...but when it comes to money ...he is a tight a** ..someways it can be good.But when your trying have fun its hard ...I love Dave to death ..But I wish he would lighten up from time to time ...Well men are very hard to understand from time to time eh??Well today was utterly depressing still haven't heard from Nucomm ...:(
Melissa

Dreams ....

2004-09-29T13:11:00.000-02:30

Dreams I have that I cant let go of now matter how I try ...Or what I do with my life ...I am now 25 years old ...Since I was little I have loved music ...My mother always told me If you pay attention to your homework as much as you do your music you'll go far...Well I wish I listened believe me ...But I still wish I was either a Disc Jockey :) I think I have what it takes to be on air at a club or on the radio..see the way I see it I am always at a club wishing they would play better music ...or just a club that carrys to a certain genre of music and the music that I love is Hip Hop and I am certain I always will....Like in the movie "Brown Sugar" when was the first time you feel in love with Hip Hop and I belive remember i was 10 !!! Melissa

Past Present and Future ...

2004-09-29T11:25:00.000-02:30

I look back to my past and think of all the things that I have been threw and what I miss about the past as well ....I miss my mom it has been almost 3 years since I have seen her...Yes she is still alive she lives 19 hours away though....I miss the close times we had before she got married ....I miss being young sometimes ...Present ..I love being with Dave ....Being around My aunts 3 kids on a Daily Basis I guess it has alot to do with the fact that I lost a Baby last year :( I love hanging with my friends and Music ...It s my way of escaping the world and some of the pain the world gives me :( ..Future ..I wonder what the future brings me ..Will me and Dave get married ? Will I ever lose weight will me and my mother ever grow close again ...Will me and Nichole talk again....will I be happy will I ever have a child ???? Melissa